sign, sign, everywhere a sign.

blockin' out the scenery, breakin' my mind.
do this. don't do that. can't you read the sign?

last night i attended a paige party.
i controlled myself & DID NOT partake in the activities. i'm proud of myself. even though if i hadn't had to drive home & i didn't have to work today, i totally would've partaked. : \

thanksgiving-ness is over. school is back tomorrow. work today from 2-8.

is it bad that this isn't hard for me at all? i honestly feel very good about myself now & i'm glad i'm single. i think i am too independent to be attatched to someone for a long period of time. but i hope this doesn't meant that i'll never get married...that would suck. : (

it snowed. fuck...

Another 18 days without you.

how's it hangin'? : )
so. wednesday. i did nothing. i cleaned alot [even though dad thinks i didn't]. whatev.

thursday. most would call today thanksgiving or turkey day. but thanks to my neurologically impaired step-grandpa, we had chicken yesterday. CHICKEN on THANKSGIVING!? wtf...

today. friday. black friday. i was awake at 4:30 am. got to theisens at 5:35 & i worked there until 12:04 pm. i'm DEAD. but not really... today at 2 i was supposed to go into work at nickelodeon, but bray just texted me & told me that i didn't need to come in today. : )

katie, ed, & robin got to iowa yesterday. i'm gonna go hang out with katie @ grandpa lawrence's & lois' house later. yay. crazy lois.

2 1/2 days of break down. 2 1/2 left.


^^this picture is badass.

because when i arrive/i/i'll bring the fire.

Let It Go.

hola!
here i am, yet again, in independent study. i haven't done anything for my project yet. : (
i should get on that. but i have another month. so maybe i'm ok for a little while longer.

i finally did it. i broke up with him this morning. i feel so much better now. i can't even describe it. i was honest with him. i told him that he needs someone who has the time and patience to be able to talk to him 24/7 and to almost baby him. i have neither the time nor the patience for such a task. i kinda think that he is crushed and i am sorry about that. but in the long run we'll be much happier on our own. [at least i will]

only two days of school this week! : D yay for thanksgiving break!! so, all i have left today is french 3 and gym. both classes are dece cuz we don't really do anything. i'm hella excited because katie (my cousin) is coming to visit over break. i'm a little unhappy though because since she is coming up for thanksgiving, she is not coming back up for christmas. lame sauce.

i dare you to move.

<3

It. Was. Fantastic.

i can't even explain how much i enjoyed Twilight. of course, it could never be as good as the book, but it certainly did well. i have many favorite parts of the movie. i'll list them

• the on-going jokes; jasper looking like he's in pain and charlie & the pepper spray : )
• the music was phenomenal!
• the setting was beautiful. despite the fact that the books depict it as being dreary and depressing, i would move there any day.
• the cast was much better than i ever could've imagined. jacob is hot ; )

i want my prince to be just like him.

Dark Blue

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Oh Independent Study...

I'm sitting in the ELP room right now being bored out of my mind. Ashton's on the phone with Vaughn talking about going to the midnight showing of Twilight. I'm going tomorrow night with mom & Ash. It should be a good time.
I have a major headache & my throat hurts like a bitch. I should've never been a homeless person at church last night. Fuck you cardboard box houses. http://www.howardsview.com/lost/new-york-homeless.jpg That sucks.

Goodbye.

And it feels like tonight...

Bonjour!
ok, so, to anyone who knows me, this may come as a shock. But...i finally caved & purchased a pair of skinny jeans. : \ i tried so hard to give in to this craziness. but i lost. damn.
today was dece. went to school at 11. yay for the flu. not. >: (
so i missed band, choir and pre-calc which is neat. but sadly i didn't show up late enough to miss AP Lang/Comp. oh well. maybe next time.
we had show choir tonight. it went ok. we practiced all of our show songs.
"Reach Out to Me", "The Song of Purple Summer", "One Night Only", and "Make It Last Forever".
The show will be in that order too. i can't wait until December 8th. that's when we learn choreography.

M'aidez! M'aidez!

well, the situation that i wrote about last time has gone yet even farther down hill. way to go me. i totally bring all this upon myself and i go about it in an immature way. maybe i'll learn eventually.

i can't wait until next friday. this movie comes out.
it's funny. some would call me a fan-girl or whatever. but i'm not, seriously, i promise. i found the first Twilight book when it originally came out, long before all the obsessed people did.
it's a cute series and it would be so neat if the people in them were real. it makes me believe that there are really guys out there that would be that amazing & loving. & it makes me think that i deserve someone like that.
i'm weird. : \
whatevs. : )

guess what?
janie's got a gun...
& her whole world's come undone.
: )
c'est la vie!

Happy Birthday to you.

i have come to realize that blogging is actually soothing for me. i love to write, but i don't like to show people what i've written because i am afraid of rejection [it's a curse]. sooooo, online anonymity has come into play. : )

this school year has been pretty dece, but also pretty annoying as well.
Junior year- yay! i'm an upperclassman. finally!

Dating this one guy- probably a huge mistake. he's very needy & clingy. which is weird considering we've dated for only about 2 1/2 months. dude, you don't need to be so clingy, needy, and whiny. also, i hate how you always give me compliments. "you're so beautiful." "you're the best girlfriend ever." etc. etc. it's driving me insane. i need you to insult me once in a while. be an ass.

oh. & one more thing. yes, you are too much of a good kid. i wear the pants in this relationship, & i don't like it.

i'm succeeding more this year than last year. [last year sucked]
this year, i did a lot of drum majoring for band. [doesn't sound like a huge accomplishment, but it is], i made showchoir!! : D in your face mr. schubert. & i made NHS.
sweet.

i love aerosmith.